Hallucinations of the Prinsediran XXII: This is Dedicated [To You]

It’s been a while, but me is finally here, to tell moi about a new found hobby – proofreading and editing project works, especially to pen down the dedication.
Seeing quite a few, I made [and I will make] the dedication:
1. To this great university, for all the tears and the laughter, a true taste of bittersweet. God made them all.
2. To my mother, without whom, I do not know.
3. To everyone who taught me kindly and to the greatest of them all, being my own mother.
4. To all of us – every one of us who depend wholly on God.
5. To God, the One unknown, the One unseen, the One above all.
6. To the light that shone on our path.
7. To me, for I am finally here.
8. To sleep, you are more than a conqueror.
9. To the sun, who is far more dedicated to trying to kill me.
10. To the moirai and the thread.
11. To them – to them – to them all.
12. To the mornings, to the nights, and to the mornings again.
13. To God, wasn’t that you?
14. To love, most especially when it’s called Rachael.
15. To the rainbow, for your zeal to accommodate us all.
16. To all our efforts, our efforts to become greater.
17. To this and that; everything that arouses our emotions.
18. To all of us who are consistently trying to go home.
19. To us, all of us who don’t belong here.
20. To those days.
21. To you, for all we said.
22. To sleep I go now [no pun intended].
23. To you who is happy for this work, Jah bless.
24. To the voice that made Chaos and Erebus flee.
25. To my mind, o dear you’re a runner.
26. To you, you actually don’t know yourself. It is you who forgave me a thousand times, now you know.
27. To the trees that made these pages, rest on.
28. To no one, for everyone has been my rock.
29. To us, to those little steps that grew into sprints.
30. To life, just so you know I am loyal.
31. To those voices, those voices that never gave up.
32. To my daughter whose coming draws nigh.
33. To those bad moments – you lost.
34. To my father, who is worth fathering the entire world.
35. To my family, just the way same you feel about yours. *[way same].
36. To the ink, to he that bends it judiciously – the last ink bender.
37. To everyone’s disapproval 😀
38. To amity, to armistice, to accord, the one that passes all understanding.


Hallucinations of the Prinsediran XXI: I Am Not [Good]

Thinking hard, I said to me, I was not affectionate.

I was not compassionate
I was not courteous
I was not gracious
I was not gentle
I was not tolerant.

I was not honest
I was not candid
I was not precise
I was not open
I was not truthful.

I was not magnificent
I was not excellent
I was not brilliant
I was not beautiful
I was not glorious.

I was not marvellous
I was not deluxe
I was not wonderful
I was not worthy
I was not good.

I was not delightful
I was not sumptuous
I was not delicious
I was not sugary
I was not sweet.

I was not bold
I was not gallant
I was not fearless
I was not confident
I was not brave.



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It’s Monday morning as I type this and I can tell you I feel tired already. I’m sure most of you feel like the weekend was so short! Why!!! Who brought up the rule of a two day weekend anyway? In fact to me it feels like 1 day because my Sunday is filled with church activities. Ahn ahn couldn’t they have made 4 working days and 3 days weekend? I’m sure that would have been better even though I’m pretty sure we humans would still have gotten to the point of complaining about how short 3 days are.  Anyway, here I am whining about needing more days to rest when there are people praying fervently to get a job… Lord forgive me!

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Hallucinations of the Prinsediran XX: I Am Beginning To [Be Human]

It is meant to be an era of new beginnings, and Moi has not been left out. Like the rest who are ‘obsessed with the idea of long life on earth’, Moi said to me;

I am beginning to hate those who hate me
I am beginning to love those who love me.
I am beginning to hate silence, the silence of the silent ones.

I am beginning to think of those who think of me
I am beginning to forget those who forgot me.
I am beginning to sting the weak, a mouth full of praises for the strong.

I am beginning to gossip about those who gossip about me
I beginning to love myself more than my neighbours.
I am beginning to fling those who flung me, and off to find those who found me.

I am beginning to betray you
I am beginning to tell stories about you.
I am beginning to make mistakes on purpose, and make an apology for things I plan to do again.

I am beginning to desire your homes
I am beginning to desire your jobs
I am beginning to desire your food.
I am beginning to crave your happiness
I am beginning to wish you sadness.

I am beginning to crave for bad news
I am beginning to create bad news.
I am beginning to love the downfall of my enemies.

I am beginning to be human.
But until that transition is complete, don’t assume I am there yet;
For I still love silence.

Top 10 Movies I Saw In 2014

🙂 Made a similar post last Christmas eve, “Argo”, “Django Unchained”, and “Think Like A Man” topped that list ( http://wp.me/p2Zzvk-2Q).

Two years ago, “August Rush”, “Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Gahoole” and “I am Number Four” topped that personal list (http://wp.me/p2Zzvk-G)

This list is not really about “new” movies, these are just the top 10 of the very few movies I watched in 2014.

1. Dream House
2. The Devil Wears Prada
3. The Vow
4. The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug
5. John Q
6. Ice Age 4: Continental Drift
7. Thor: The Dark World
8. Maleficent
9. R.I.P.D
10. Along Came A Spider

Musicflakes: Top 10 Most Played Songs On My 2014 Playlist

1. All This and Heaven Too – Florence + the Machine

2. Lisztomania – Phoenix

3. All of Me – John Legend

4. Never Let Me Go – Florence + the Machine

5. I Follow Rivers – Lykke Li

6. Honey and the Bee – Owl City

7. A Thousand Years – Christina Perri || The Blower’s Daughter – Damien Rice

8. Royals – Lorde

9. Magic – Coldplay

10. Chandelier – Sia

Hallucinations of the Prinsediran XIX: One Is [In Between]

Here we are again, in a life where everyone tends to pick one end of the line. Moi looked upon me and said,

“One is either good or bad, one can still be in between. Judge.”

One is either black or white, one can still be in between. Grey.

One is either dead or alive, one can still be in between. Ghost.

One is either fair or dark, one can still be in between. Chocolate.

One is either kind or unkind, one can still be in between. Detached.

One is either careful or careless, one can still be in between. Carefree.

One is either a curse or a blessing, one can still be in between. Balak.

One is either hot or cold, one can still be spat out. Lukewarm.

One is either visible or invisible, one can still be in between. Vanishing.

One is either an angel or a demon, one can still be in between. Bad Pastors, Good Witches.

One is either in here or in there, one can still be in between. Irrelevant.

Hallucinations of the Prinsediran XVIII: I Will Be [An Example]

A full circle and a few more turns and we are here again. It’s been long I heard from Moi, but Moi is finally here and to let Me know of what will be.

One won’t say one wants to be rich or famous or anything hyper, for what will be will be.

I will be an example of that dream that never came true
I will be that fiction that never became untrue
I will be the one who never lived
I will be the one who never died.

I will be that smile that never faded
I will be that tear that never dried
I will be that wound that time never healed
I will be that old wound that never opened up.

I will be that hair that never grew,
that ripe fruit that never fell.
I will be that hair that never turned grey,
that fruit that never ripened.

I will be the egg that never hatched,
the sun that never rose.
I will be the star that never shone,
the sun that never set.
I will be the moon that never faded.

I will be that child that never grew up,
that man that never grew old.
I will be that child that was never born,
that father that never died.

I will be an example of this
I will be an example of that
A curse, a blessing, I will be what you see in yourself.

Come rain come sun, one will be an example of what is, what shouldn’t be, what can be, what will be, what cannot be and what wouldn’t be.

Once Upon A Dream by PhanÐira

Happy to announce that I published a novel through AuthorHouse UK.
You can order for the hard copies from the links below.The ebook format are available for download on AuthorHouse US, Amazon, Bookdepository, and Barnes&Noble. (http://bookstore.authorhouse.com/Products/SKU-000961562/Once-Upon-A-Dream.aspx)

Book title: Once Upon A Dream…
Genre: SciFi.

Once Upon A Dream tells a story set in a fantastically bizarre future. It is told by way of a dreamscape, mind-trip narrative style that presents a quirky take on an undeniably strange, but oddly familiar future. It is a different world with a different manner of speech. Readers are taken through the dreams, the nightmares, the past, the present and the possible future.


For Nigeria: http://www.amazon.com/Once-Upon-Dream-Dream-Dream-Phandira/dp/1496988701

“Once Upon A Dream”
By PhanÐira
Softcover | 5 x 8in | 306 pages | ISBN 9781496988706
E-Book | 306 pages | ISBN 9781496988713
Available at Amazon and Barnes&Nobel; AuthorHouse UK

Musicflakes: Top 10 Most Played Songs On My 2013 Playlist

1. And The Glory – Handel’s Messiah

2. Viva La Vida – Coldplay

3. The Kill – 30 Seconds To Mars

4. Head, First, Down – Whitley

5. Castle of Glass – Linkin Park

6. Powerless – Linkin Park

7. Hurricane – 30 Seconds To Mars

8. Keep The Streets Empty For Me – Fever Ray

9. Dreams – Cranberries

10. Diamonds – Rihanna